21 candles

i turned 21 yesterday. yay! i am really happy to be 21. probably the biggest reason is because my drivers license will get to switch orientations, which is pretty cool.

i wish i had taken more picture of birthday festivities, but there weren't really any. i went to work, then dinner with the family followed by some card games with friends. then night ended early so i had the blessed audrey come up for a chat.

overall, it was just a really chill birthday. not a big deal, but nice. thanks to everyone who wished me happy birthday! and to those who didn't, i know you meant to. :)

friday

i love the fact that it is friday. i have a love affair with friday. i would venture to say it is quite possibly the best day of the week. the jury is still out on that, but it's quite possible. there is nothing better than reaching 5:00 on a friday evening, leaving work, and having the whole weekend in front of you.

friday nights are better than saturday nights as well because it doesn't matter how late you stay out, you always have saturday morning to sleep in. this is not always the case with saturday nights. if you have church at 9:00, you are unable to sleep in, causing many saturday night festivities to be cut short.

not that i'm hating on saturdays, love them too! but there is always something that has to be done on saturday. things to be done are rarely scheduled for friday nights. the outcomes of friday nights are endless!

can you tell i am pumped for tonight?!?! too bad my stomach decided to be a drama queen and get upset. o well. play through the stomach ache!

intense

this week is the most intense week of the year. every year, about this time, i have about ten panic attacks and pull out numerous amounts of hair from my head. can anyone guess why?

that is right.

season finale week.

i have only seen one finale so far, and i'm already freaking out! holy cow! it is amazing how in some shows, you don't think they can throw you any other curve balls, but indeed, they do! wow! i just can't even describe it!

I LOVE SEASON FINALE WEEK!!!!

decided

**i am not generally a negative person, and i'm not a super intense planner/worrier. fyi.

yesterday i was freaking out about the future. for those of you that know me well, (which i assume is most, if not all, of the 3 people that read my blog) i am a super planner. i love to have everything planned out. not that i'm not a spontaneous person, (trust me, i do some pretty spontaneous things. ask my roommates) but i love to have my life planned out. i have had my life planned out since i was a child. i had a hard time graduating from college because i didn't have a plan for what was next in life. now that i have hit another crossroads time, it all came back, but this time, I HAVE A PLAN!

when i say i have a plan, it isn't really a plan for life because there are SO many outside factors that will come into play. my plan is a plan for how to combat my worry-wort nature. i have decided that instead of worrying about what the future has in store, and how to make sure my future is exactly how i want it, i need to only focus on making today the best day it can be. if i make every day great, my future will be great, and it will let me take it all in stride.

how am i going to do this? i'm going to volunteer more. i haven't decided exactly what yet, but i think that as i give my time away, i will get a much bigger reward of helping others. everyone knows about a "service-high." imagine having a service high all the time! talk about a fun life!

i'm also going to think positively about life. bad things are still going to happen, but if i have a better attitude, i will be able to take a bad situation and look at the positive side.

so yes, i have decided to not worry about what the future has in store and when everything is going to happen. i am going to be positive and focus on today, and how i can make it great for me, and for all those around me.

(if i ever complain to anyone reading this, remind me of what i am saying now so i snap out of it and remember what i am doing. thanks!)

untitled

i have no idea what to even call this post. these past five or six weeks have been indescribable at the very least. the term "emotional roller coaster" doesn't really seem to suffice. don't worry, i won't divulge the inner-workings of the craziness known as my mind, but everything is a lot better now!

i just want to thank everyone for being such great friends to me the past few weeks. i'm positive most people don't know how helpful they have been in my life recently. i have seriously been blessed with angels.

"opposition in all things" is such a true principle! its been the best and worst of times lately, and i am so grateful for those involved in the best of those times. :)

i don't want to get too churchy or anything, but seriously, wow. the gospel has brought me so much comfort. i just can't even begin to describe how much my testimony has grown the last little while. i am so grateful that i have the knowledge i do.

i love you all!